I went to therapy today. I wait two weeks to go and it seemed like I was there for five minutes but it was fifty. It just goes bu really fast. I am trying to remember what we discussed. It is very hard for me to stay present. I keep getting distant and I don’t […]Read more "Today’s Thoughts"
Today was a bad day for me. I am very restless and feeling kind of numb. I scratched my arm today and I am not proud of that but what’s done is done. I can’t go back and undo it so I just have to deal with these feelings of self harm. Now I don’t […]Read more "Another Day"
I think I am in trouble. I have an alter that is on a hunger strike and I haven’t had anything substantial to eat in three or four days. I can’t remember when it started I think it was Friday or Saturday of last week. I am really feeling sad about this I wish I […]Read more "Hunger Strike"
I am so angry I could spit dirt and I don’t even know if that’s a saying. I’ve taken a turn for the worse and it upsets me. I don’t understand what I did to get in this predicament. I am having thoughts of self harm and I already scratched some skin off my arm. […]Read more "I’ve fallen and can’t get up"
The day was long it seemed like eternity. Restlessness filled my spirit and made me very anxious. I am a person with too much time on my hands and I need to find something to keep me busy and out of my head. I think too much I am the thinker and that’s all I […]Read more "I am the Thinker"
I was at my wit’s end. I was in my darkest hour of depression and self-hatred and I threw my arms up into the universe and asked why, why am I here ? It entered my mind loud and clear, “Love”. Love, that’s what it’s all about but I was so filled with resentments I […]Read more "Love is the Answer"
Why I did it I have no idea. Someone posted a picture of my father to Facebook on Christmas this past year. I’ve had it in my downloads ever since. Well yesterday I took a gander at that photo and the tears flowed freely down my cheeks and I felt so small like the little […]Read more "Looking Forward to a New Day"