Here I sit

Here I sit with tears in my eyes my silent cries go unheard in the night There is a man in my room and he fills me with fright He comes every evening when bedtime arrives His dark shadow in the corner of my mind Is he real or a fake Am I out of […]

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Where do I go from here?

I don’t know how or why I am here I don’t claim to be a writer nor am I a certified blogger I’m just a person who is hurting inside and doesn’t know how to deal with it. I went to therapy today and I don’t really remember what we talked about all I know […]

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Dear Dad

Dear Dad, It’s been a while since I wrote to you. I was very angry at you for a long time for all the abuse you laid upon me but times have changed and I am finding that my rage has subsided. I no longer hold the hate that has bound us together. I am […]

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Thinking Back

  I was just thinking on how far I have come since 1986 when my journey first started. That was the year I sobered up from a pretty bad drug and alcohol problem. I didn’t even know I was an abuse survivor at that time. After about five months of therapy I found out in […]

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On Forgiveness

At one point in my life I was so full of rage and anger I never thought I could forgive my abusers. In fact I told myself numerous times that I would never forgive my abusers and I really believed that deep down to my core of my being. I hated them and wished for […]

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Life is a Gift

I haven’t written for an extended period of time. I seem to have had a mental block for some reason. Maybe it’s because I just didn’t feel like dealing with anything. I have been working hard to build my self-esteem as I had such a bad outlook on myself. I realized I needed to change […]

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Sleepless Night

I’m starting to think sleep is highly overrated. I’m sick of being up all night. I went to therapy yesterday and a new alter fronted. I think she came out because I was talking about my feelings. I have so much hurt and anger I don’t know what to do with it. My heart is […]

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